From This Chair

Even if the weather is gloomy, it's always sunshine in my heart.

When the rain has stop pouring down

To keep you cold

To hold you in that feeling

In that memories

Don't forget

Allah created sunshine

For you

For me

For us

You,

Hear this

I shall start my rambling, again

I like it when you're close to me

I like it

But don't be too close to me

If it's only for the sake of loneliness.

I want to be close to you

I want you to be close to me

Yes, I want to.

But please,

Can it be just me?

Oh wait. 

I know.

Can't.

Other matters are messing

If I would want to have you

Things would be more complicated.

God,

When will I have the courage to go run and grab it?

When will I have the courage to step out of my walls?

I always have the things I wanted

Though it's late

Since my wish is YOU

Can I have you?

I need an answer too.

Sometimes.. I wonder

Am I leaving in denial???

Sometimes.. I thought

I don't need this

I don't need them

I don't need you

No, I don't.

But why does my heart ask for it?

I myself am questioning myself

I'm wasting time on unnecessary, stupid, useless thing

That people call,

L-O-V-E.

For all I know,

This is not LOVE.

I call it D-E-S-I-R-E.